Trusting

So, it's my last semester in college... wait! Did I just say that?!?!

IT'S MY LAST SEMESTER IN COLLEGE!

Wow.

I've started my last semester at USF and it feels surreal. I'm definitely excited, but I'm also sad to leave this part of my life behind. College has been a BLAST! I've made so many friends and experienced the first tastes of adulthood and real responsibility here. I've climbed trees in the middle of the night and gotten breakfast at Andros at 2am here. This is where I developed a love for nursing and caring for people. This is where I cheered my own football team onto... well, just cheered! I learned how to listen for God's voice. I learned how to be a friend. I learned how to learn.

And now... I'm leaving it behind.
This semester, like each at the college of nursing, is overwhelming. Each time I come back to school I'm faced with a never-ending to-do list and only 16 short weeks to complete it. But unlike EVERY previous semester, I decided to try a new approach. I decided to try daily trusting God. Most of us trust God for big things, but not for the daily little things He so wants to bless us with and provide for us. I asked God for opportunities to help me trust Him... BIG mistake!
My life fell apart. Literally. And instead of trying to solve everything in my mind and trust in myself to get through it - I decided to trust God. Afterall, why does God work things together for good, for them that love Him and are called according to His purpose? To conform us to the image of His Son. Why are we to consider trials joy? Because the testing of our faith produces endurance. Why are we to trust in God with all our hearts? Because He alone can make our paths straight.
So, I decided to trust, though it hurt. I decided to thank and praise, though I was anything but thankful.

Once I decided that, and purposed myself to trust, I thought things would get better. And really, they haven't. But my perspective is different.

Only Trust Him
Come, every soul by sin oppressed,
there's mercy with the Lord;
and he will surely give you rest,
by trusting in his Word.
Refrain:
Only trust him, only trust him,
only trust him now.
He will save you, he will save you,
he will save you now.